Message #50428

[emd_22]

I have just had my performance review which I always find frustrating and demotivating process.  No matter how hard I seem to work or what I try to do, my manager seems to pick on something!  Maybe he’s afraid if I do a good job then I won’t make the effort anymore, he obviously doesn’t know me very well.

My feedback has been good again this year and I am pleased with this.  However he has now come up with the idea that I need to have more presentation skills training.  Quite frankly I feel that this is a complete waste of time as I have been on this course twice before and in my current role we never normally need to present anything.

Has anyone else had experience of being put forward for things like this?  Does anyone know of any other courses I could suggest instead of this which may be more relevant?

He seems to think I lack confidence and don’t want to promote myself.  This may be true but, if I am allowed to say this, I am reasonably happy with what I am doing and don’t want to progress to the next level as it doesn’t offer the variety of work my current job does and possibly involves management, a stressful job I could do without!

I know I am not naturally talkative in a group but feel that if I don’t have anything useful to add why should I just waffle for the sake of it.  I feel like I am being bullied into doing things that I don’t want to do!

He also sprung a surprise on me that I hadn’t expected that he thought I would add more input into a system, which was being set up.  I was amazed at this as due to the fact the system is science based and I do not have a science background how could he possibly expect me to input into something like that.  

I also tried to bring up the fact about his move and was effectively cut off in mid flow!  Maybe I need to be more forceful but to be quite honest I have come to the conclusion that the sooner he moves the better from my point of view as quite frankly I’m fed up with the whole situation.  I don’t really want to move on and we have no jobs going internally that I could go for but am beginning to wish I had sorted something out and not stayed here.  I’m not sure if it pays to stay a long time with one company.  I have been here 15 years this June!

Liz