Message #51496

[chevygirl55]

I can certainly empathize with you.  I am paid very well yet I sit here 6 - 7 hours a day with nothing to do.  When someone does give me something to do, it is faxing this, or scanning and emailing that.  It always amazes me that they walk by the fax machine to bring you the document to fax, follow you to the machine and stand there and talk to you while you are faxing their document.  

I have asked for more responsibility. I have talked to my boss on numerous occasions to let him know that I know he is paying me well at the top of my scale for the area but I am not EARNING it.  We are a small company.  There is no where to move to within the company.  We are slowly growing and they are hiring people here and there.  Anytime we hire someone else, part of what is left of my job goes to them.  In the last 1 1/2 years, my job has pretty much disappeared.  

At one point, I was sure it was me.  I was not doing a good job.  Something was wrong.  Again, I talked to my boss.  Everything was great.  I was doing a great job.  Didn't have enough to do?  So he gave me some more mind-numbing copying or scanning to do.  Don't really remember.  I have wiped those two weeks from my memory.  And when it was done, I am back to doing nothing.  It really makes you doubt yourself.

I am tired of trying to look busy.  I am tired of coming up with an idea only to have it taken from me and given to someone else to run with.  I am just tired.  I am just glad that I have things in my personal life at this point to keep me sane.  If my entire ego was based on my job, I would have checked out a long time ago.

It is tough when you know that you have the skills, the attitude, the work ethic, and the desire to be an outstanding employee and contributor.  I am done talking and asking and begging.  I continue to come in every day and do what is asked.  The pay is good.  Meanwhile, I continue to update my skills and keep on the look out for a more challenging position.  Due to some family obligations, I must spend the rest of this year a bit low key on this, but after the first of the year I will line myself up with one or two good agencies because relocation to another part of the country will not be an issue.

It is not easy, but it is just one door closing and another opening up.  I am sure that there is something good for me just around the bend.  

Keep your self esteem in tact.  That is the hardest part of this.  That along with the people I work with.  I have really come to love many of them and the thought of not working with them is hard but I will get through this.

chevygirl55